A Parents Acceptance

Christmas Eve I was visiting my family and my mother said we were going to church. I had packed some dress clothes, jeans without holes, a dress shirt with skulls, and boots. Well my mother only said dress up. She didn't say no skulls (impossible anyway I don't own such a thing) so she ended up screaming at me because I didn't bring anything normal. Well I told her God doesn't care what I look like. She preceded to scream and say YOU HAVE BEEN LIKE THIS FOR HOW MANY YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!! GET OVER IT!!!!!! Well lets just say she is now embarrassed of her 19 year old daughter who has been "goth" since 7th grade. For those of you that have parents that hate your appearance like I do, just ignore them. I have tried everything to get my mother to understand how I feel. It doesn't help. Just keep being who you are. That is all you can do. I have come to accept that my mom and I won't have a strong relationship, and she will always want the old me back.

Goth/Emo Statuses

1. Is it my turn to die? my heart is pounding as I say goodbye. -Bullet for my Valentine, Your Betrayl
2. This is what I thought, I thought you'd need me this is what I thought so think me naive -AFI,   Prelude 12/21
3. Hope was wasting away faith was wasting away I was wasting away-AFI,The Great Disappointment
4.I'd show a smile but I'm too weak I'd share with you could I only speak just how much this, hurts me- AFI, This Time Imperfect
5.Look in my eyes you're  killing me all I wanted was you.....
6. All I want is a hero....
7. Tears don't fall.....they crash around me -Bullet for my valentine, Tears Don't Fall.
8.Fuck My Life.
9.I wanna use you and abuse you.-Marilyn Manson Sweet Dreams
10. Black-The color of my heart.
11. What is love? Crying yourself to sleep over that special someone because they broke your heart.
12. Death=Heaven
13. Nirvana means the freedom from pain, suffering, and the external world.
14. I wish I was afraid of suicide long ago before I died.
15. Perfectly Flawed.
16. All I see is sadness.
17. Was I just a poor decision?
18.Imperfections make you unique.
19. </3
20. ☠    ☣    ☢   

Marilyn Manson Concert

Marilyn Manson is a huge ideal of mine. So this past summer in May I went to one of his concerts. Well the other bands were pretty awesome The Pretty Reckless is AMAZING you should check them out. As for Manson. I love him to death, love his music, and his style, but his singing live sucked that night. When he went on you couldn't understand him because he was drunk. That was the main thing. Then my night got worse because my ex made me leave because he is a wimp!!!! That ruined the concert for me I could have been right next to the stage, but his ears hurt so he made me move. So if you have a chance to see Manson live give it a shot if anything the other bands he is with would be worth it.

MEN!!!!!!

Ok so if any of you are about to date a Cody Ruby, DON'T!!!!! He is a major asshole! He will use you and he'f lazy as fuck. I was with him for 5 months. He ended up saying he didn't love me when he was the one that said it first. Save yourself the heartache DONT DO IT.

Bullying

Yet another person I went to school with committed suicide. All because of assholes bullying him. They should feel like complete shit for doing it. I hope they do, I may seem cruel, but they need to know what it feels like to be called a freak and told to die every day in school. Anyone that has been or is being bullied you can talk to me I'll listen to whatever you want to say. I know how you feel, I went through it every single year. I was called a freak, I didn't have friends, I was told to die, I was tripped, I was ignored, I was used, and abused. Please talk to someone if you need help. If your one of those people that bullies, think about how your actions are hurting people. No one should feel like that.

Gothic Senior Pics

With your senior pictures you for sure want them to reflect who you are. Trust me, you may change and become "normal" in the future. But do what you want to do now. You may change, but you still don't want to regret what your doing now. So for your senior pictures make them all about you. Dress like yourself, go to the places you enjoy. I got mine done at the cemetery (Love them!!!). Other ideas are going to an abandonded home, a willow tree, cemetery, an old church, an industrial part of your city/town. Basicly anywhere you go you can make gothic. Just be you!!!!

What is goth anyway?

If you were like me, kids in your school would ask are you goth? are you goth? Just because I liked to were black. The true meaning of "goth" is dressing in dark colors, not talking a whole lot, and listening to metal/death metal music. That is the label that many of us are given. So what if I like to dress in dark colors? So what if I like rock/metal music? That does't mean you need to judge me or put a label on me. I am who I am. This is who I want to be. Just because I dress like I do does not mean I am a bad person. How would you feel if we judged you for wearing hollister? You would not like it. Well we don't either. So please don't judge us just for expressing ourselves, and having our own style. We just want to be different than anyone else. This is who we are so get over it.